MiSTAKES

WE'RE ALL HUMAN.WE ALL MAKE MiSTAKES.YA WE MAY N0T ADMiT iTS 0UR FAULT BUT iN THE END iT iS.BECAUSE Y0UR THE 0NE THAT MAKES Y0UR 0WN DECiSi0NS.Y0U ARE THE 0NE THAT HAS THE P0WER T0 iNT0XiC Y0URSELF,THUS iMPAiRiNG Y0UR JUDGEMENT.Y0URE FRiENDS.Y0U CH0SE WH0 T0 BE WiTH.BUT WHAT i'M TRYiNG T0 GET AT iS WE ARE ALL MAKiN MiSTAKES.S0 F0RGiVE JUST LiKE Y0U WANT 0THERS T0 D0 F0R Y0U.D0NT WALK AWAY CAUSE THATS WHEN Y0UR NEEDED THE M0ST. [[L0VE KATiE BABYYY]] <3

SETTLiNG...

i D0NT KN0W WHAT i WANT ANYM0RE. i FEEL LiKE i'M JUST SETTLiNG F0R WHAT i'VE BEEN GiVEN. i D0NT WANNA SETTLE i WANNA BE ABLE T0 BE WiTH S0ME0NE THAT I FULLY WANNA BE WiTH i'M N0T SEC0ND GUESSiN. i'M N0T HiDiN FR0M MY FRiENDS THAT i'M TALKiN T0 THEM. i JUST WANNA BE ABLE T0 TELL THE W0RLD "THiS iS MY MAN BE JEAL0US. HE C0MES H0ME T0 ME && 0NLY ME. Y0U WiLL NEVER GET THE CHANCE T0 BE WiTH HiM CAUSE i L0VE HiM && HE L0VES ME. WE ST00D UP iNFR0NT 0F 0UR FRiENDS && MADE A V0W T0 EACH 0THER T0 BE T0GETHER F0REVER, BUT F0REVER JUST iSNT EN0UGH TiME WiTH EACH 0THER." WiTH ALL THAT SAiD AND THE WH0LE TiME i WAS WRiTiNG THAT i WAS THiNKiNG 0F MARK....

i'M JUST N0T SURE...

i'M JUST N0T QUiTE SURE ANYM0RE. MY HEART HURTS. WHEN MY PH0NE RiNGS. i SMiLE. BUT i JUST D0NT KN0W. Y0U CALL ME && i GET NERV0US. i D0NT KN0W WHAT T0 SAY T0 Y0U ANYM0RE. THiNGS DEFiNATELY ARENT THE SAME ANYM0RE. THEY NEVER WiLL BE. iN THE BACK 0F MY MiND EVERYTHiNG THAT Y0U'VE D0NE T0 ME REPLAYS iN MY MiND LiKE AN 0LD M0ViE. BUT i JUST D0NT KN0W.. MY HEAD TELLS ME T0 ST0P ANSWERiNG Y0UR PH0NE CALLS AND PUT 0N MY BL0CK LiST. BUT EVERY TiME i D0 THAT, Y0U CALL ME && i JUST TAKE Y0U BACK 0FF. AS MUCH AS i TRY i CANT ST0P TALKiN T0 Y0U. BUT MY HEART HURTS S0 MUCH AFTER THE THiNGS Y0U'VE D0NE SAiD. i CANT ST0P 0VER ANALAYZiNG THiNGS THAT Y0U SAY. 0R D0. i CANT ST0P THiNKiNG AB0UT Y0U. i JUST D0NT KN0W. WHAT AM i SUPP0SE T0 D0. i JUST D0NT KN0W...

THEN 0N THE 0THER SiDE DALE WANTS T0 TALK AB0UT US. WHAT'S G0iNG 0N. WHAT THiS iS ALL AB0UT. HE WANTS T0 DiSCUSS 0UR FUTURE. T0NiGHT HE WAS STARTiNG T0 SAY THiNGS. i KN0W EXACTLY WHAT HE WAS SAYiN AND WANTED T0 SAY BUT i PUSHED iT iN THE BACK 0F MY HEAD. BECAUSE i REALLY HAVENT C0ME T0 TERMS 0F WHAT i WANT 0UT'VE LiFE 0R WHAT T0 D0.

0NE HE SAiD THAT HE WAS SUPP0SE T0 BE ENGAGED. i KN0W FR0M THE EPHASiZiNG THAT iT WAS HiM && i. THE SEC0ND TiME AR0UND. THAT THiNGS WERE SUPP0SE T0 BE PERMANENT. BUT i CH0SE S0ME0NE ELSE. i KNEW THAT i WAS SUPP0SE T0 BE THE FiANCE iN HiS LiFE.

THEN AN0THER 0NE WAS HiM WAKiN UP AND R0LLiNG 0VER. THAT WAS SAYiNG THAT HE WANTED T0 R0LL 0VER iN THE M0RNiNG NEXT T0 ME. HE WANTED T0 FALL ASLEEP AND WAKE ME NEXT T0 ME. THAT HE WANTED T0 BE ABLE T0 G0 T0 SLEEP KN0WiNG THAT i WAS RiGHT NEXT T0 HiM && WHEN HE W0KE UP THAT i WAS STiLL G0iNG T0 BE THERE. HE C0ULD PUT HiS ARMS AR0UND ME, HE C0ULD H0LD ME ANYTiME HE WANTED.

i KN0W THESE ARE THE THiNGS THAT HE WANTED T0 TALK AB0UT. BUT i CANT TALK AB0UT ALL 0F TH0SE THiNGS RiGHT N0W BECAUSE i'M STiLL S0 BR0KEN. i'M STiLL S0 HURT. i D0NT KN0W WHAT T0 D0 0R SAY ANYM0RE. i'M JUST S0 HURT, i'M STiLL S0 MADLY iN L0VE WiTH S0ME0NE ELSE. BUT WHAT i D0NT UNDERSTAND iS THE FACT THAT DALE iS MY FiRST L0VE, THAN WHY AM i STRUGGLiNG WiTH SHiT 0VER S0ME0NE ELSE YA KN0W?

0NE LAST....

THERES 0NE LAST G00D BYE i WANT T0 SAY. BUT iM SAD T0 SAY i D0NT THiNK THAT iTS G0iN T0 HAPPEN 0R iTS G0iN T0 BE P0SSiBLE. i KN0W THAT Y0U CALLED ME A FEW DAYS AG0. BUT i WR0TE Y0U A MSG WiTH ALL 0F MY HEART P0URED iNT0. BUT iT DiDNT REALLY SEEM T0 PHASE Y0U. S0 iF MY FEELiNGS DiDNT PHASE Y0U THAN i GUESS iT D0ESNT REALLY MATTER. i'LL JUST G0 0N MY WAY WiTH THE HAPPY TH0UGHTS THAT i SAiD SEE Y0U LATER 0R TALK T0 Y0U S00N T0 TH0SE WH0 TRULY MATTER. CAUSE i'M N0T G0iN T0 MAKE AN EFF0RT T0 SAY G00D BYE T0 S0ME0NE THAT'S N0 EVEN WiLLiNG T0 AKN0WLEDGE ME. 0R EVEN CARE T0 MEET ME HALF WAY ANYM0RE.

i PUT Y0U T0 HiGH 0N A PETAST00L T0 HAVE SHiT THR0WN iN MY FACE. i CH0SE Y0U. i CH0SE T0 BE WiTH Y0U. i CH0SE T0 GiVE Y0U MY TiME. BUT iTS WHATEVER. iT D0NT MATTA. CAUSE i KN0W WHERE i STAND. WiTH Y0UR FANCY W0RDS. && Y0UR PLAYED 0UT LiNES.

G00D BYES

G00D BYES ARE 0NE 0F THE HARDEST THiNGS T0 D0. iTS HARD T0 SAY G00D BYE T0 S0ME0NE WH0 MEANS S0 MUCH T0 Y0U, && HAVE T0 WALK AWAY FR0M THEM. KN0WiNG WHEN Y0U TURN AR0UND T0 SEE THEM iTS F0R THE BEST. THERE'S N0THiNG THAT Y0U CAN CHANGE. THiNGS ARE HAPPENiN F0R A REAS0N, Y0U CAN TRY Y0UR HARDEST T0 ALTER THEM. BUT WHEN G0D HAS WEAVED Y0UR DESTiNY THERE iS N0 TURNiNG BACK. THERE iS N0 ADDiNG 0R SUBTRACTiNG. THERE'S JUST Y0U MAKE DECiSi0NS G0D JUST ADDS THE FLAV0R, THE PUNCH THE DESTiNATi0N.

Y0U HAVE T0 SAY G00D BYE T0 TH0SE Y0U L0VE. MAYBE S0ME0NE Y0U L0VE WiTH ALL Y0UR HEART ALL THAT Y0U ARE. Y0U HAVE T0 TURN AWAY WALK AWAY FR0M THEM. Y0U G0TTA ACT LiKE iTS N0THiN THAT iT D0ESNT HURT BUT Y0U KN0W DAMN WELL THAT'S A LiE CAUSE Y0U HAVE TEARS FL0W FR0M Y0UR EYES. Y0UR HEART HURTiNG. BLEEDiNG EVEN.

Y0U HAVE T0 SAY G00D BYE T0 Y0UR BEST FRiEND. Y0U HAVE T0 M0VE 0R MAY iTS JUST F0R THE BEST THAT Y0U G0 Y0UR SEPARATE WAYS. EiTHER WAY THAT PERS0N iS CL0SE THEY KN0W AL0T AB0UT Y0U.

F0R ME. i KN0W F0R A FACT THAT YES TEALE iS MY BEST FRiEND. BUT DALE i'VE KN0W F0R TW0 YEARS. i'VE BEEN 0N & 0FF WiTH HiM. i L0VE HiM ALWAYS HAVE 0R WE W0ULDN'T BE G0iN THR0UGH THESE CiRCLES THAT WE KEEP PUTTiNG 0URSELF iN. T0NiGHT WE DiDNT SAY G00D BYE. WE DiDNT SAY SEE Y0U LATER. i HALF HUGGED HiM. THAN i FULLY HUGGED HiM. THAN i HUGGED HiM TiGHT && NEVER WANTED T0 LET G0. BUT i KNEW THAT i HAD T0. i KNEW THAT EVEN TH0UGH HE HAD 0NE ARM AR0UND ME AND WAS HALF HUGGiNG ME THAT HE DiD N0T WANNA LET G0 EiTHER. WE WANTED T0 F0REVER STAY iN EACH 0THERS ARMS.