L0VE...

AFTER THESE LAST TW0 YEARS THAT i HAVE BEEN THR0UGH WiTH L0VE. WiTH THE DEFiNATE UP'S & D0WN'S 0F L0VE WiTH THESE TW0 GUYS. i NVR WANNA FALL iN L0VE AGAiN. N0T BECAUSE i L0VE THEM S0 MUCH THAT i D0NT WANT T0 FiND S0ME0NE ELSE & M0VE 0N WiTH MY LiFE. BUT BECAUSE i'VE SEEN WHAT iT'S D0NE T0 ME & THEM. i'VE SEEN H0W MUCH DRAMA iS CAUSES. H0W HARD iT iS T0 MAKE THE RiGHT DECiSi0N WHEN Y0UR iN L0VE WiTH TW0 PE0PLE.

i JUST D0NT THiNK THAT MY HEART CAN TAKE iT ANYM0RE. i JUST D0NT KN0W iF i SH0ULD LET PE0PLE iN ANYM0RE. i JUST REALLY D0NT KN0W AT THiS P0iNT AB0UT ANYTHiNG 0THER THAN WHY i L0VE && WHY i L0VE THEM.

i L0ST B0TH BATTLES. i L0ST 0NE BECAUSE i CH0SE S0ME0NE ELSE'S FRiENDSHiP 0VER W0RKiN THiNGS 0UT. WHiCH i SH0ULDA JUST STUCK WiTH BUT ME BEiNG ME i CH0SE THE LEFT SiDE iNSTEAD 0F THE RiGHT. && THAT'S WHY i'M STUCK iN THiS "BEST FRiEND" BULLSHiT. iT SEEMS THAT i CANT ST0P MAKiN TH0SE LEFT TURNS, i'M JUST STUCK iN THiS CiRCLE 0F L0VE. i WiSH i C0ULD GET 0UT BUT AT THE SAME TiME i D0NT. i JUST D0NT KN0W... I WiSH THiNGS WERE DiFFERENT. THAT THE LAST THREE DAYS MEANT S0METHiNG T0 HiM AS MUCH AS THEY DiD T0 ME.

i WiSH THAT ALL MY G00D BYES WERE G0NNA BE DiFFERENT THAN THE WAY THAT THEY ARE TURNiNG 0UT T0 BE N0W. BUT iF THiS iS THE WAY THAT i HAVE T0 SAY MY FiNAL G00D BYES BY N0T SAYiN G00D BYE S0 BE iT. iTS JUST THE WAY THiNGS TURNED 0UT T0 BE. THE WAY THEY HAVE T0 BE...